Mature?

From talking with and about the cirque peeps being all OLD AND DECREPIT older and stuff.

So this is probably what Olya'd be like around18-19 before she pops some lead in her head.
Man oh man, she'd a be such a psycho when she gets older. She'd constantly be all worried about herself and feel vulnerable all the time just 'cause she's not staying a kid, she's so CRAY CRAY.

She's still pretty small and thin though lmfao.

::EDIT::
More description on her growth I s'pose ; D

Well as she started to grow up and mature physically, it's almost as if her mind just slowly began to disintegrate. She would try to avoid any conversation or thoughts about growing older, completely ignoring a lot in life and around the cirque to do so (which made her so much more unaware of everyone and everything). She then became that much more dependent on false hopes and small things like humming and reading as well as other "kid" things to keep her mind in the clear. This huge dependency issue makes her kind of clingy to the few she still trusts and actually made her into a gullible mess. She'll believe anything if someone acts kind or in some way that is a slim chance at youth again. She's still mature and quick-witted at times, but these are all balanced on these false senses of security that are only instilled in her by others. So if someone she trusted completely, outright does something opposite or even tells her to just grow up or remind her of their adulthood now, she will go apeshit and everything will fall apart. In the end, she'll snap and once everything is basically gone in her mind, the only option to keep herself from aging like they say is to slit her wrists in order to, in her words, let the old, bad blood out and stay a kid forever.